wow i'm posting so much in an attempt to inject some very much needed life into this very much dead blog...
yea anyway so today we had our first out-of-pw-lesson meeting! thought it was pretty fun/the atmosphere was good, everyone was pretty co-operative and we had lots of welfare via food! though there were a few little displeasures here and there, such as the fact that we ended everything at 10pm despite me saying latest 8pm then dinner afterwards =( which resulted in me reaching home at 10+ and not having done anything constructive, till now, which is 1.15am. hai.
oh well but i like the spirit of our pw group. i think the mix of personalities is just right, and the synergy seems to be adequately there. so i'm pretty glad =)
which brings me to something. i just realised that i get sort of left out alot when people are talking about things like ccals and stuff. i mean like, when today yitian (no offence/not flaming you in case you read this yitian!) was saying how our class has many ccals/councillors, she did not mention me.
of course i dont blame her, since after all npcc is really hardly a cca of any profile in rjc at all, its even considered external so i really dont expect many people to know about it and even who's in it in rjc. having said that, i really feel sad/unappreciated that i'm not well recognised as a cca leader in npcc, and kind of get pushed to the sidelines when anything that has to do with ccals are mentioned.
of course, i need to qualify that i didnt join back npcc just for the namesake of ccal and for my CV and things like that (though i dont deny that they are undoubtedly useful/advantageous). i like what i'm doing now and definitely wont mind going back even if people dont really look up to me or recognise me for what i am doing or who i am. think this should be obvious from the fact that i've been going back so much despite well, the current situation in rjc as mentioned earlier. my point is really just that sometimes, i just want people to appreciate me for what i'm doing, for going back to npcc (which should never ever be shameful or stupid), for being who i am at all. call it ego needs if you may, but this is how i feel.
next week, i'm pretty dead as 8 may is the worst day of my life in recent months. why? let me show you why.
-giis-tie entre comp presentation
-econs lecture essay test
-HCL mid year exam (which we are taking with the sec4s ZZZ)
-deadline for PI (though not that big a matter, could always hand up on thursday)
see how screwed my day is? ah and not to mention 9 may there's crimezero briefing, and then the week following chem class test on tuesday, which really means 0 time to mug. and the topics include chemical bonding, the most win one yet. say hi to failure liao...
ah and i really am quite fail. i told myself that i would try to spend the rest of the night/morning (since technically after 12midnight its morning) doing something constructive, even if only a little, like reading up on gp articles, doing abit of homework or just looking through/revising previous topics for various subjects. but i've done none of those. all i did was go on msn, check email (of which there were none), and that was it. oh and i sent an email to my pw group, what an achievement huh. OH, and i still have not done up my npcc proposal yet. i promised my teacher in charge that i would give him one by this week. so much for promises...ah, i really just feel noob now.
where can i find my motivation? i can only think of one now, and that'll be you.
yea anyway so today we had our first out-of-pw-lesson meeting! thought it was pretty fun/the atmosphere was good, everyone was pretty co-operative and we had lots of welfare via food! though there were a few little displeasures here and there, such as the fact that we ended everything at 10pm despite me saying latest 8pm then dinner afterwards =( which resulted in me reaching home at 10+ and not having done anything constructive, till now, which is 1.15am. hai.
oh well but i like the spirit of our pw group. i think the mix of personalities is just right, and the synergy seems to be adequately there. so i'm pretty glad =)
which brings me to something. i just realised that i get sort of left out alot when people are talking about things like ccals and stuff. i mean like, when today yitian (no offence/not flaming you in case you read this yitian!) was saying how our class has many ccals/councillors, she did not mention me.
of course i dont blame her, since after all npcc is really hardly a cca of any profile in rjc at all, its even considered external so i really dont expect many people to know about it and even who's in it in rjc. having said that, i really feel sad/unappreciated that i'm not well recognised as a cca leader in npcc, and kind of get pushed to the sidelines when anything that has to do with ccals are mentioned.
of course, i need to qualify that i didnt join back npcc just for the namesake of ccal and for my CV and things like that (though i dont deny that they are undoubtedly useful/advantageous). i like what i'm doing now and definitely wont mind going back even if people dont really look up to me or recognise me for what i am doing or who i am. think this should be obvious from the fact that i've been going back so much despite well, the current situation in rjc as mentioned earlier. my point is really just that sometimes, i just want people to appreciate me for what i'm doing, for going back to npcc (which should never ever be shameful or stupid), for being who i am at all. call it ego needs if you may, but this is how i feel.
next week, i'm pretty dead as 8 may is the worst day of my life in recent months. why? let me show you why.
-giis-tie entre comp presentation
-econs lecture essay test
-HCL mid year exam (which we are taking with the sec4s ZZZ)
-deadline for PI (though not that big a matter, could always hand up on thursday)
see how screwed my day is? ah and not to mention 9 may there's crimezero briefing, and then the week following chem class test on tuesday, which really means 0 time to mug. and the topics include chemical bonding, the most win one yet. say hi to failure liao...
ah and i really am quite fail. i told myself that i would try to spend the rest of the night/morning (since technically after 12midnight its morning) doing something constructive, even if only a little, like reading up on gp articles, doing abit of homework or just looking through/revising previous topics for various subjects. but i've done none of those. all i did was go on msn, check email (of which there were none), and that was it. oh and i sent an email to my pw group, what an achievement huh. OH, and i still have not done up my npcc proposal yet. i promised my teacher in charge that i would give him one by this week. so much for promises...ah, i really just feel noob now.
where can i find my motivation? i can only think of one now, and that'll be you.
posted by Pan-san at 5/02/2009 01:13:00 AM
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