how far should you go to stand for what you believe in?

i'm not sure if i'm losing faith or not. suddenly, everything seems to have become a whole lot harder.
am i right to say that old wounds do still hurt? the most you can do is to numb yourself, paralyse your senses to that feeling, become desensitised. the rest is just pain.

ms cheng made an excellent point today. the thing about UGs is that you learn how to train and instruct other people. that is really what distinguishes us from clubs, sports, musical groups, academic societies and the like. essentially, it's leadership. to be honest i find that that's the most meaningful and practically beneficial skill that you can gain out of a cca.
but they need to get it for themselves. one can only drill so much propaganda into others' minds. the rest is up to them to accept and digest. if it fails...then it fails.

i hate to say it, but i'm getting tired. and discouraged.