no one is infallible.
we all make mistakes.

it was a lesson rather deeply imprinted in my memory. it's never right to hand over the helm of leadership to another without due informing of the involved parties.
yet we did it anyway. rather inconsiderate and insensitive gits we must have been then.
i could sense the kind of disappointment that jun lun had when he confronted us about it. true, we had reasons for allocating camp planning to the rest of his squad, but none were good enough to justify not telling him about it. yes, it was a major oversight on our part there.
it takes a lot of courage to express an apology directly. it takes even more when you consider that its a senior (of rank, age and all) apologising to a junior. but, only a sincere apology can open the doors to true forgiveness.

shaun really hit it on the nail when he said that the current CIs of rinpcc are going back so damn often, simply because we 放不下心. translated, we don't feel at ease just leaving them be. i don't wish our efforts to create a sense of overreliance on us for help, as if we're their saviours. but at the same time i can't stand sitting there and doing nothing but watch as the unit slowly spirals downwards. ah, dilemmas and more dilemmas. what a bother.

did i mention? i'm now sporting an excellent toe injury, consisting of a disgusting flap of skin hanging loosely (ok not so much now since a couple days have passed) and a broken toenail.
the reason? i cycled into a lamp post. most of me dodged it, except for my poor foot. and don't ask me how a lamp post can inflict such injuries, because i have no idea myself. just beware the wrath of lamp posts in future or you might wind up really bad off; you've got a case in point here.
plus points: i get to skip PE! and i gain sympathy points from people. ok that was a plain silly point. i would really rather go for PE (no matter how hiong) and regain 100% health than continue like this. oh and i really hope i won't have to forgot napfa just cause of this. it sucks to not be able to train in such a condition too. grah.
minus points: i now have a morbid fear of people coming close to my right foot. have not been stepped on yet but am not going to try letting that happen. oh and maybe i have lamp post phobia too.
so that's that for my eventful day at east coast park sigh. at least i had a fun time bowling my first!

workload's getting quite bad, everything's getting harder. and i have no idea why the econs department is evil enough to test us on every single topic for the upcoming case study test and even CTs. like really, its the only department to do that. don't talk about preparing us for the real deal, since if we aren't able to mug properly for this one to start with it's not much of an accurate indicator of our performance to be right? oh and 3 days of my holidays are gonna get sapped away for camps. it's worse that i have 2 camps clashing directly.

maybe an early night's sleep will do some good.
if i can get one that is..


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林俊傑-翅膀
曲︰林俊傑 詞︰張思爾 編︰吳慶隆

同樣的機場　不同世界
同樣的咖啡　不同味覺
同樣的我和我都少了一些
看飛機劃過天空　不見了

用妳給我的翅膀飛　我懂這不是傷悲
再高都不會累　我們都說好了
用妳給我的翅膀飛　我感覺己夠安慰
烏雲也不再多　我們也不為誰掉眼淚

空氣中藏著　妳的香味
回憶裡躲著　妳的眼淚
最後擁抱的溫暖還有一些
我拖著行李往前　一直走

看一看回憶　是雲朵一朵朵的飄過
若想要回頭　就無法傲翔

烏雲也不再多　我們也不為誰掉眼淚