it struck me again, painfully today, that i've not been able to defend what i do, and even why i do what i do, for that matter.

what startles me is how people can jump to a conclusion based on how sparsely they know about the issue. how can one make an accurate judgment when they know next to nothing about it (despite the belief that they know loads)? i think a whole load of cultural and personal sensitivity is missing from our society.

does it really matter whether the people you're doing it for appreciate you for it or not? does it really matter whether others think highly (or lowly) of what you do? does it really matter when no one else can understand and see things the way you do?

i remember someone saying this: when the whole world is against you, you either die, or you succeed. so am i successful or dead? i really don't know. all i know is that something has to be done about it, and i need to be the one to do it. it's not enough that i stay committed; i want to be able to stand up and fight for what i believe is worthy.

and this new journey of mine is really still uncertain for the most part. i suppose i've found supportive friends who will guide me through this, but i don't know if it's the right thing to do. there are obstacles that might crush any hope of this carrying on.
for now, i think i will just pray that the right way to go will reveal itself to me in due time.

nothing is impossible, we're only limited by our lack of faith.