it seems that i always come here when i have some sort of emotional baggage that i want to release.
what an excellent medium to do just that (or not).
well, promos chinese and OP may be over and done with, but it's almost like the greater obstacles in life are but yet to come.
the only difference is that this wall seems far more impossible than any other wall in the past. and i'm not being one bit pessimistic here when i mention this. i think it's only fair to call it stating facts.
just read 2 chinese books that i bought today, i AM getting addicted to buying books. i did a stock check of sorts yesterday and i have 7 chinese books and 8/9 english books that i purchased this year, completely of my own free will and not because i had to read it for some school reading assignment.
it almost seems funny that i'm into chinese books after chinese is over and i should be celebrating the fact that i can stay away from chinese for like forever and ever. but no, learning a language should not be like that, and definitely a language should not cease to exist in your life merely because the relevant exams are a thing of the past. it was meant to be a lifelong experience and should rightly be so. what's more, the chinese language is seriously (in my opinion) better than english. there're those things that you can never express in english half as well as in chinese.
i must confess that i am troubled. yeah i know i go around acting like everything's fine and dandy outside, and that i'm like some happy little lad, but things are never what they seem. there's pressure and worries coming from all aspects of life and it's not helping that i'm supposed to handle all this on my own. the days of mindless slacking are long gone, even though it's post whatever-that's-important season now. the fact is that there are just too many things for me to take care of. i can almost feel myself becoming breathless.
i need some hope.
what an excellent medium to do just that (or not).
well, promos chinese and OP may be over and done with, but it's almost like the greater obstacles in life are but yet to come.
the only difference is that this wall seems far more impossible than any other wall in the past. and i'm not being one bit pessimistic here when i mention this. i think it's only fair to call it stating facts.
just read 2 chinese books that i bought today, i AM getting addicted to buying books. i did a stock check of sorts yesterday and i have 7 chinese books and 8/9 english books that i purchased this year, completely of my own free will and not because i had to read it for some school reading assignment.
it almost seems funny that i'm into chinese books after chinese is over and i should be celebrating the fact that i can stay away from chinese for like forever and ever. but no, learning a language should not be like that, and definitely a language should not cease to exist in your life merely because the relevant exams are a thing of the past. it was meant to be a lifelong experience and should rightly be so. what's more, the chinese language is seriously (in my opinion) better than english. there're those things that you can never express in english half as well as in chinese.
i must confess that i am troubled. yeah i know i go around acting like everything's fine and dandy outside, and that i'm like some happy little lad, but things are never what they seem. there's pressure and worries coming from all aspects of life and it's not helping that i'm supposed to handle all this on my own. the days of mindless slacking are long gone, even though it's post whatever-that's-important season now. the fact is that there are just too many things for me to take care of. i can almost feel myself becoming breathless.
i need some hope.
posted by Pan-san at 11/16/2009 12:50:00 AM
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