a blog is a nice place to express some of the thoughts that you've always wanted to in reality (i don't mean this is a make believe world, but oh well my vocabulary's limited), but couldn't for one reason or another.

yesterday and today was lots of PW. oh, make that lots of PW plus randoming admist PW. at yitian's house. i realise that the easiest/clearest way to truly know someone is to see how he/she lives out his/her life. from the way they organise their things to their day to day routine schedules, it says so much more than what they could possibly tell you verbally. really proving the phrase "action speaks louder than words". and i think it's cool that every encounter can bring about a refreshed look at someone. it's one of the many things that one can look forward to in life, admist the hustle and bustle of it. neglecting to appreciate these minute but infinitely finer things in life would be a real bummer.
i enjoyed the randoming sessions (which sounds random in itself to say it), listening to yitian's music collection and youtubing for random MVs and then singing it like some kbox session haha. maybe sometimes you just have to look hard for things to be happy about in your life.

the sessions were really good in improving my OP too, i must say. well i've got alot of comments and points for improvements, and for that i really thank my pw group. i can scarcely be considered "good" already though, there's alot more work to be done. but knowing what you don't know is a start, yes it is.

and i really only started revising for chinese today. i have to say that i really, really only understood bao zhang du hou gan format today. like seriously. makes you wonder how i survived sec3/4 chinese as well as Os, but oh well.
the lack of drive to study reminded me strongly of this thing called 慢性自杀。i put it in chinese since i came up with no appropriate translation for it. but anyway, the analogy is that i'm putting myself on a road to screwing up for the second year running. one would think that failing once would spur you to correct the mistake, but as counterintuitive as it may be, that's not the case for me right now. it's almost like you've got addicted to screwing up so much that you become desensitised, become indifferent to whatever happens, good or bad. this is a bad thing of course, and if i were to add, extremely eccentric too. i won't go into what i postulate might happen to me in time to come though, things will show themselves eventually and what's more i'm no prophet.

so far, the 21 irrefutable laws of leadership has been an awesome read, and i'm 100% confident it will continue to be so. i can already picture applying many of these things back in my unit, which will really be the true awesomeness in action. it's a pity training only resumes next week (i think).
ah, i just got reminded of the fact that there'll be no new blood (as in CIs) coming in next year for our unit. i guess i felt a little devastated, partly by the fact that no one felt it a worthy cause to pursue (depsite what obstacles there may be), and also that it will mean a somewhat lonely burden to carry on my shoulders for yet another year. it does sort of dampen one's spirits, to know that there'll be no one to pass the torch on to next year, but looking at it in another light, it but reinforces the belief that we are in serious (and with good cause) need for change to come to rinpcc. sometimes a belief is all you need to take you through the toughest and most trying times, isn't it.

alright it's time to look at OP script again. feels almost like WR season haha. oh well, another time..