i've delayed this post so long i almost feel guilty. fine it's not even something alive or animate yet i'm feeling guilt towards it, but whatever, moving on.

will be cutting short alot of things since lack of time and even a lack of energy is stopping me from churning out grandfather stories..

promos are finally over for one. by all rights a giant sigh of relief should follow, but somehow life no longer gives you that jerk of happiness after surviving exams. more things have come into your life that demand more attention and focus, and these are the things that unforuntately (or otherwise) keep you occupied to the max even after promos.
what i can say for promos is that, i definitely didn't do my best. so much time was blatantly wasted away in front of me and i let it happen. if i screw up, i really only have myself to blame (though i can totally foresee myself shifting the blame to other things). why, the papers are coming back tomorrow already, how soon. just hope that i pull through, and then maybe i could take a h3.
am really thinking seriously about taking econs h3 game theory at smu, it's the only h3 that i actually get excited (even if just a little) about when i look at it and read the introduction. but life may not direct me towards that path, so i'll see how it goes from here.

right now, my life is really going to be PW OP, chinese O levels and NPCC. OP and Os both come in exactly a month's time (do they have to clash pfft). OP isn't something to belittle and i really want to take this chance to improve my speaking skills. i definitely need the improvement.
as for Os, it's already my second shot at it and if i screwup again i don't know what to say. even so, it's not exactly an easy feat, what with not touching chinese almost entirely for the most part of this year. any chance at all comes with hard work, surely. reminder to myself to work hard and not repeat my mistake i guess.
npcc is something that i've been fretting over for quite awhile now. unit and cadet problems aside, it's not exactly helping that we're facing some unhappiness and obstruction to our plans. i've got so much to give, so much to try out, so much to just put into place and let things run correctly for once, but i have no idea how many of them will actually materialise in the end. it's alot of adversity to overcome; i don't think i can survive, or could have survived, thus far without the passion within me for the cca and for the cadets.

meanwhile, there are other things that i want to do besides those compelling things from school. the list includes reading books, taking time out to hang out with friends who i care about, and even just spending time to reflect on my own life so far(i'm not joking about this fyi). i've realised that there're way too many things you want to do in this world but can't do due to the little eccentric thing called time.
oh and, i recommend "the compass" by tammy kling. if you like philosophical stuff and like to think deeply about life and the like, this book is for you. read it! it's been such an inspiration to me personally.
and i got myself "the 21 irrefutable laws of leadership" by john maxwell recently too. nevermind comments that leadership can't be learned through theory or books, we'll see how it goes. things are always worth a try isn't it?

i think after almost an entire year of jc life, i can quite appropriately say that it's been a rough tumble, but nevertheless it's been so enriching where life is concerned. don't worry i shall launch into some essay about it at like the end of the year where i like to do a customary post rounding up the year's events.

i've sort of got back into including song lyrics at the end of each post, so..=)

女:宇宙洪荒那时候
第一句爱是谁说出口
当时的他 如何形容
对方 听懂不懂
男:开天辟地了以后
第一对恋人什么结果
洞穴湖泊 日升月落
他们 爱了多久
男:如果我们那时就相遇
会不会爱得比较放心
合:也许分离 还没被发明
来折磨爱情
男:一千次轮回都不错过
女:一万里相随都不放手
合:在每个尽头 再约好碰头
再睁开眼 就认出你我
女:一千次轮回足不足够
男:一万里漂泊又算什么
合:这人海辽阔 爱总被磋跎
总该 留一篇传说
女:宇宙洪荒那时候
第一句爱是谁说出口
当时的他 如何形容
对方 听懂不懂
男:开天辟地了以后
第一对恋人什么结果
洞穴湖泊 日升月落
他们 爱了多久
男:如果我们那时就相遇
会不会爱得比较放心
合:也许分离 还没被发明
来折磨爱情
男:一千次轮回都不错过
女:一万里相随都不放手
合:在每个尽头 再约好碰头
再睁开眼 就认出你我
女:一千次轮回足不足够
男:一万里漂泊又算什么
合:这人海辽阔 爱总被磋跎
总该 留一篇传说
合:我会尽我全力
抵抗世间的情戏
无情地爱你 wo~
男:一千次轮回都不错过
女:一万里相随都不放手
合:在每个尽头 再约好碰头
再睁开眼 就认出你我
女:一千次轮回足不足够
男:一万里漂泊又算什么
合:这人海辽阔 爱总被磋跎
总该 留一篇传说
女:还好我有你
男:幸好你有我
合:一起写一篇传说