time to blog again, yay =)

well, it's the end of the first week of the June hols. Haven't really accomplished much...all i mugged was econs microeconomics notes. market structure never touch. win la...

positive things

went to the gym today! had a pretty imba workout...oh and my pullup count is now officially 6 (fine those better than me, dont have to suan...let me soak in my own ego for awhile first k)! it's pretty funny how i can enjoy the pain of gymming. i guess it's all because you know that at the end of it you'll come out stronger and better than before. just gotta keep this in mind till NS is over...haha good luck to myself doing so.

spammed chat with alot of people on msn the past 2 nights! slept at 3 woots. can't do the same tonight though, tomorrow there's npcc hq duty again! 9 to 6. holy, worse than working adult. or at least as bad, hai...tomorrow apparently is printing of certs. sounds dam sian, hope there'll be something fun.

3pm...guess what i spent it on? msn, facebook, blog. the big 3! ok not something to be proud of actually. but it's just so love-hate you know, the relationship. like you love it because of all the entertainment it brings you, but hate it because it ruins your studies, schedules whatever. oh well. it's all about balance. which i need to learn how to achieve sadly.

oh i didnt mention. I GOT MY DRILL CANE LAST WEEK. woots. 30 bucks but well worth it. plain awesome...shall flaunt it around in school sometime! XD

changed my facebook profile picture too yay! it looks good...but then i'm praising myself so i shall stop. nevermind, people can see for themselves one la...no need me to say...HAHA. X)

this week's schedule is pretty bad too. tomorrow there's duty for the whole day (zomg), tuesday's theres one chapter meeting and some hunger banquet for RCLF and stuff, wednesday...class outing? not confirmed zz. saturday i got SABO-ed (by a certain someone, for a super silly reason cited) to go support SAGE finals, then after that there's the 6N june bday people's celebrations at kangwei's house! yay go crash. heard it's super big...shall see for myself how big. =)

AH NPCC SEC4 CHALET on 9-11 june...cannot go la what the...i'm damn sad!

hmph. CI confirmation form has become quite a bother. i havent got the proof of study at RJC yet (the office said they would call me in a day or two! and i went last wednesday. so much for credibility?). and mr koh's schedule doesnt really fit with mine so a real trouble to get him to sign the form. and i'm not really going to school after that, so i'll have to make one special trip down to school JUST to get that form omg...well, in times like this smile and be glad that there's circle line! =D

nyaa havent fill up/submit yet. damn. who knows when the gold award presentation ceremony is? should be around the same time of year for every year right?

half a year's passed just like that. frankly it seems a little too short for my CI term. i don't feel like i've done enough. sure, being there every training says something, but it's definitely not enough. we need to really dream big and do something huge that will positively impact the unit and the squads. right now, not much of that yet, and it's something of a pity.

speaking of which, the more i think the more i realise that it's really, really hard to be a good/role model CI. you need to be strict yet empathetic, go by the book yet be flexible in making exceptions, teach what is necessary but not let it bore people to death, funny witty and interesting yet not lose your image of a leader and a senior, be someone cadets respect but not just think of you as someone they have to obey merely due to a rank difference. on top of being able to organise, plan, execute, anticipate problems and always have contigency plans in mind where possible, if not impromptu skills in handling last minute crop-ups or situations, and of course being good in the very core skills - drills, campcraft, PT.

if you think about it (or if you know how UGs are like), it's not easy to be so many things at the same time. lucky i have a role model to look up to. hao jun (my instructor) from the CI course has been really great, and last thursday seeing him at HTA was quite a experience. even after the course, he's still really and genuinely concerned about how we're doing and all. great guy man...i bet he'll go on and accomplish great things in life in future. go hao jun! =D yup, he's someone i'd wanna strive to be, not just as a CI but as a person in general too. of course, i should be finding my own style and not be some copycat, but well. you gotta start with something right?

ah well. i've got to go sort out my life. it's in quite a mess now...haiz.