i have so much things to do that i really amaze myself with how well i can escape reality by coming here. *sigh* never mind. writing helps to soothe and clear one's mind =) plus it may help me with my GP CT this wednesday or something...hopefully.
hmph damn i have so many things that i want to say...but due to lack of time + the extremely high chance that 100% of readers will die throughout just 10% of the my post i shall skip many of them...huhu.
i've been pretty busy with npcc hai. been doing proposals, getting out the interview questions, detailing the procedure and all that i feel in a worse position than if i were the one getting interviewed. the admin and saigang to do is just crazy; fine now i know how hard it is to chair an interview. next time i actually sit for one i will keep that in mind and be friendlier and more sincere to the interviewers. (not that i haven't been very already though...)
but then again, something to look forward to: sec3 interview this wednesday! though it means that i'll have to skip like half of ENTRE GM, i think its worth the sacrifice la. after all, it's not everyday that you get to be the one interviewing people and deciding their fate rather than the poor guy sitting down there and waiting to get slaughtered grilled or cooked by the sadistic evil and demented interviwers hurhur...ok exaggeration. but it'll be fun and an interesting experience definitely. you get to see who're the real ones and the fake ones, all the kinds of crap that people can come up with under pressure and stuff, it's just hilarious. and we'll be preparing a little stunt for them ^.^ will wait and see the show! (ah i need to etch it in my mind lest i forget on the day itself)
and another thing i noticed, i've become so damn tired nowadays. not sure if it's the emotional/psychological burden that's come down on me all of a sudden, but then its a fact that i'm awfully tired every day of the week, every week of the month, every month of the year. especially after npcc, when i reach home at 7 i want to do nothing else but sleep it all off till the next day. so much for studies.
but then again i'm not really complaining. even though npcc totally drains me out (or maybe it's not npcc's fault, i think i just get tired if i'm doing anything in school for long), it's been really fun and enriching. just like on wednesday when i was training the sec2 and 3 combined squad for open house drills display. it was super great when you can motivate them to get that bang right, get the posture up and all. every "GOOD!" that i say counts, and the more times i say it the more good i feel and i'm sure it's the same for the cadets too. that's why being an NCO is so fun...wish i was one again. rightt i need the neville nah factor again, need to remember to add in a fun/sarcastic element into how i take drills. guess i may have been a little too focused (and maybe tired) that i forgot about that. it helps, really. even if it doesnt seem to, it just has this magical touch to it...
yeah, motivation does wonders. take it from me...just need the right person there with you to get it going. let's go, the many things that we have in common and that we've shared.
oh and i missed open house! damn. got there at 2.30, but then there was category 1 lightning already so most of the crowd was gone. ah sian...ended up stoning pretty much, just interacting with the sec4s. it's a very intriguing relationship, between a senior and junior in a uniformed group who start to break the barrier and become friends. very much different from any other random club or society where you basically start out as friends. and i walked all the way from the RI raffles square to RJ 7-11 just to get drinks for them lor. where can you find such a nice CI sia...(fyi i got them those drinks on the house...cost me 4.80 ok not cheap). then after that got jacked again, flower sales was supposed to start at 6.45 and not 4 so i was like ... but then i went to join sharon abhi and hari for dinner at vivo so i guess it wasn't that bad a wait. feel like going vivo again hai. haven't been out properly for like forever. pw outing man! must get one up this week after GP is over.
oh and flower sales was pretty interesting! not the most fun experience but definitely a fresh one (haha cos we're selling fresh flowers ma...ok fail joke nvm). from going to buy flowers, then preparation which included cutting dethorning wrapping sleeving ribbon tying (during which i pricked myself on the damn thorns twice, not bad. once i didnt even realise i was bleeding till i saw a red streak down my finger somewhere. and i even thought for a moment that it was the flower petals' dye or something coming off, how smart), and of course finally the selling itself. apparently friday's sales were quite slow, and saturday's sold like crazy. seriously, we started late on saturday's yet sold out the same quantity of flowers as friday in like 20minutes? now that's imba =)
woah and i got to know lum hui (sorta) on friday...he said i have a "UG look". and what is that?! someone please explain to me. i bet it's just cos you guys know i'm in UG lor so you guys think i have the look when it's just your mind playing tricks on you or something. i shall go do a social survey and find out =D practising pw skills...
i've been pretty slack for pw the past week, and i feel kinda guilty. sorry guys...been real busy, with 2 tests this week (one of which is probably a fail; what do you expect with only 3 hours odd of mugging the night before), lots of cca stuff to do, ccas to attend and all. i'm really not sure how my group's gonna turn out through the june holidays...it's a very crucial period in my opinion, it really will make or break us. so which fate of the two will befall on my group?
but i do sincerely think that PW is really one of the most useful subjects of the A level cirriculum. lets face it, which other subject can teach you how to work in a team? how to manage people, manage big tasks? how to emphathise with others, how to motivate them to get things done? i have no idea why my group was shocked at me when i put my no.1 priority as "learning how to work with people" or something along that line, but it was seriously the first thing from the list that had caught my honest attention. the A grade is really secondary...if you can't work with people (ie cant work in the real world), what good do a million As do for you, you tell me. looking back i'm really glad that i got the chance to be the pw group leader. managing this bunch of people hasn't been easy, but that's exactly why i appreciate it. if it was simple as cake then there would be no challenge and there would be little point in doing so. funny isnt it, how we always like the things in life that give us the most challenge, even though we know we might just come away from it with nothing but bruises all over ourselves.
and mr koh is a really great teacher (and i am serious about this, no sarcasm intended), i'm glad that we could have him for pw. his guidances may be weird or confusing at times but it does help alot in broadening my horizon and perspective on things in life, not just pw.
academics have been pretty rough for me. econs test...even though i seem to have done better than many people despite getting a fail grade (which by the way was 12/25, meaning i JUST failed omg), it still doesnt bode well. if you apply it similarly to the CTs, i'll just die. unless you tell me they will do some sort of massive moderation...but then again we shouldnt ever count on this kind of random things to help us.
chinese test on thursday wasn't that good too. i couldn't recall the exact format for a implementation-type bao zhang du hou gan, and i may have screwed it up big time for all i know. the future seems quite bleak where chinese O level is concerned...am i really going to be able to get it up to an A? the lack of exposure to the chinese language is already starting to show; i wanted to write so many idioms during the test itself but just couldnt remember how to write them (and i didnt bother to bring a dictionary cos it's so heavy and bulky). i can't really find a proper avenue to do enough chinese...help!
GP CT is in just 3 days time too (ok fine 2, since it's 12.02am now), and i've hardly started to study for it. frankly i don't even know how to properly prepare, and it may well be too late to start reading articles or those thick infopacks which i've never bothered to get myself to start on. hopefully, i'll get my motivation up and going and it'll all pay off. a B for this test is a very good grade already and i wouldnt dare ask for more. (not that i will complain at an A...)
another long post and i think i shall stop here for now. it's getting pretty boring isnt it. i feel a little disappointed and empty in that i dont really get the chance to share the deeper secrets of my mind and heart with someone. not everything that i am thinking of is written here definitely. things like these will only be shared with the right person. i do believe that that person has come along, but then there are still some barriers yet to be broken yet. is it just me, or something bigger? only time will tell.
and i shall end with another quote, something that i've come to adopt since awhile back. it just feels so good to be able to say it (even if it is just over here)...even better if i can say it to you, in person.
if you would take my hand, we'll walk down this path together. our path.
hmph damn i have so many things that i want to say...but due to lack of time + the extremely high chance that 100% of readers will die throughout just 10% of the my post i shall skip many of them...huhu.
i've been pretty busy with npcc hai. been doing proposals, getting out the interview questions, detailing the procedure and all that i feel in a worse position than if i were the one getting interviewed. the admin and saigang to do is just crazy; fine now i know how hard it is to chair an interview. next time i actually sit for one i will keep that in mind and be friendlier and more sincere to the interviewers. (not that i haven't been very already though...)
but then again, something to look forward to: sec3 interview this wednesday! though it means that i'll have to skip like half of ENTRE GM, i think its worth the sacrifice la. after all, it's not everyday that you get to be the one interviewing people and deciding their fate rather than the poor guy sitting down there and waiting to get slaughtered grilled or cooked by the sadistic evil and demented interviwers hurhur...ok exaggeration. but it'll be fun and an interesting experience definitely. you get to see who're the real ones and the fake ones, all the kinds of crap that people can come up with under pressure and stuff, it's just hilarious. and we'll be preparing a little stunt for them ^.^ will wait and see the show! (ah i need to etch it in my mind lest i forget on the day itself)
and another thing i noticed, i've become so damn tired nowadays. not sure if it's the emotional/psychological burden that's come down on me all of a sudden, but then its a fact that i'm awfully tired every day of the week, every week of the month, every month of the year. especially after npcc, when i reach home at 7 i want to do nothing else but sleep it all off till the next day. so much for studies.
but then again i'm not really complaining. even though npcc totally drains me out (or maybe it's not npcc's fault, i think i just get tired if i'm doing anything in school for long), it's been really fun and enriching. just like on wednesday when i was training the sec2 and 3 combined squad for open house drills display. it was super great when you can motivate them to get that bang right, get the posture up and all. every "GOOD!" that i say counts, and the more times i say it the more good i feel and i'm sure it's the same for the cadets too. that's why being an NCO is so fun...wish i was one again. rightt i need the neville nah factor again, need to remember to add in a fun/sarcastic element into how i take drills. guess i may have been a little too focused (and maybe tired) that i forgot about that. it helps, really. even if it doesnt seem to, it just has this magical touch to it...
yeah, motivation does wonders. take it from me...just need the right person there with you to get it going. let's go, the many things that we have in common and that we've shared.
oh and i missed open house! damn. got there at 2.30, but then there was category 1 lightning already so most of the crowd was gone. ah sian...ended up stoning pretty much, just interacting with the sec4s. it's a very intriguing relationship, between a senior and junior in a uniformed group who start to break the barrier and become friends. very much different from any other random club or society where you basically start out as friends. and i walked all the way from the RI raffles square to RJ 7-11 just to get drinks for them lor. where can you find such a nice CI sia...(fyi i got them those drinks on the house...cost me 4.80 ok not cheap). then after that got jacked again, flower sales was supposed to start at 6.45 and not 4 so i was like ... but then i went to join sharon abhi and hari for dinner at vivo so i guess it wasn't that bad a wait. feel like going vivo again hai. haven't been out properly for like forever. pw outing man! must get one up this week after GP is over.
oh and flower sales was pretty interesting! not the most fun experience but definitely a fresh one (haha cos we're selling fresh flowers ma...ok fail joke nvm). from going to buy flowers, then preparation which included cutting dethorning wrapping sleeving ribbon tying (during which i pricked myself on the damn thorns twice, not bad. once i didnt even realise i was bleeding till i saw a red streak down my finger somewhere. and i even thought for a moment that it was the flower petals' dye or something coming off, how smart), and of course finally the selling itself. apparently friday's sales were quite slow, and saturday's sold like crazy. seriously, we started late on saturday's yet sold out the same quantity of flowers as friday in like 20minutes? now that's imba =)
woah and i got to know lum hui (sorta) on friday...he said i have a "UG look". and what is that?! someone please explain to me. i bet it's just cos you guys know i'm in UG lor so you guys think i have the look when it's just your mind playing tricks on you or something. i shall go do a social survey and find out =D practising pw skills...
i've been pretty slack for pw the past week, and i feel kinda guilty. sorry guys...been real busy, with 2 tests this week (one of which is probably a fail; what do you expect with only 3 hours odd of mugging the night before), lots of cca stuff to do, ccas to attend and all. i'm really not sure how my group's gonna turn out through the june holidays...it's a very crucial period in my opinion, it really will make or break us. so which fate of the two will befall on my group?
but i do sincerely think that PW is really one of the most useful subjects of the A level cirriculum. lets face it, which other subject can teach you how to work in a team? how to manage people, manage big tasks? how to emphathise with others, how to motivate them to get things done? i have no idea why my group was shocked at me when i put my no.1 priority as "learning how to work with people" or something along that line, but it was seriously the first thing from the list that had caught my honest attention. the A grade is really secondary...if you can't work with people (ie cant work in the real world), what good do a million As do for you, you tell me. looking back i'm really glad that i got the chance to be the pw group leader. managing this bunch of people hasn't been easy, but that's exactly why i appreciate it. if it was simple as cake then there would be no challenge and there would be little point in doing so. funny isnt it, how we always like the things in life that give us the most challenge, even though we know we might just come away from it with nothing but bruises all over ourselves.
and mr koh is a really great teacher (and i am serious about this, no sarcasm intended), i'm glad that we could have him for pw. his guidances may be weird or confusing at times but it does help alot in broadening my horizon and perspective on things in life, not just pw.
academics have been pretty rough for me. econs test...even though i seem to have done better than many people despite getting a fail grade (which by the way was 12/25, meaning i JUST failed omg), it still doesnt bode well. if you apply it similarly to the CTs, i'll just die. unless you tell me they will do some sort of massive moderation...but then again we shouldnt ever count on this kind of random things to help us.
chinese test on thursday wasn't that good too. i couldn't recall the exact format for a implementation-type bao zhang du hou gan, and i may have screwed it up big time for all i know. the future seems quite bleak where chinese O level is concerned...am i really going to be able to get it up to an A? the lack of exposure to the chinese language is already starting to show; i wanted to write so many idioms during the test itself but just couldnt remember how to write them (and i didnt bother to bring a dictionary cos it's so heavy and bulky). i can't really find a proper avenue to do enough chinese...help!
GP CT is in just 3 days time too (ok fine 2, since it's 12.02am now), and i've hardly started to study for it. frankly i don't even know how to properly prepare, and it may well be too late to start reading articles or those thick infopacks which i've never bothered to get myself to start on. hopefully, i'll get my motivation up and going and it'll all pay off. a B for this test is a very good grade already and i wouldnt dare ask for more. (not that i will complain at an A...)
another long post and i think i shall stop here for now. it's getting pretty boring isnt it. i feel a little disappointed and empty in that i dont really get the chance to share the deeper secrets of my mind and heart with someone. not everything that i am thinking of is written here definitely. things like these will only be shared with the right person. i do believe that that person has come along, but then there are still some barriers yet to be broken yet. is it just me, or something bigger? only time will tell.
and i shall end with another quote, something that i've come to adopt since awhile back. it just feels so good to be able to say it (even if it is just over here)...even better if i can say it to you, in person.
if you would take my hand, we'll walk down this path together. our path.
posted by Pan-san at 5/24/2009 11:36:00 PM
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