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well, at last we're coming to the end of JC1 term2. tomorrow's the last day of the first half of this year, and i guess i would probably dedicate a post to reflecting this period some other time. not now.

noo mr tan chor kiang's leaving us! tomorrow's his last math lesson with us argh. and then he'll be gone for overseas university boohoo. bye sir, hope you've had fun with our class cause we've definitely had with you around. and best wishes for your uni days and life ahead!
of course i shouldn't be forgetting mr tay rong en our chem teacher! he had his last chem lesson with us on tuesday. we had a nice cake for him plus a nice board filled with the well wishes from each class member. you're a really friendly and cool guy when we get to know you haha! stay that way and go make your mark in wherever you're going next!
i really regret how i didn't make an effort to complete my tutorials on time, ask a couple more questions in class, or even just interact with them a little more outside of the classroom context. it's times like this, when things are about to be lost or robbed from you forever that you realise how precious they have been to you. and you regret, sadly but surely. why do humans always do that even though they know they'll live to regret it. weird eh.

and today we had got back our chinese midyear exam. i got an A2! omg i was so happy, considering that i didnt study or prepare for it at all beforehand it's reallly quite an achievement. of course, you can attribute it to the innate easiness of the paper or something, but gah. sometimes you just gotta be more optimistic and think more highly and confidently of yourself right =)
just to ego A BIT (wait what if i get suanned instead), here's the breakdown:
paper 2 (ie the compre etc) - 80.5/110 (73%...ah that's not bad la)
paper 1 - letter 15/20, compo 48/70 (75% and a little under 70% respectively...felt a little disappointed that compo couldnt break the 70% mark though)
but overall! good job to myself, i think i deserve it. or do i, i didnt actually mug so call it a fluke??
mdm zhang hongshi was asking each of us whether, throughout the past term, we had put in effort to study or do something to increase our academic abilities outside of the lessons and assigned homework. almost all our answers were "no". and she was telling us, "if you don't make an effort to do anything else, won't you feel a sense of loss or regret if at the end of the day you don't get an improvement in your O level grade and possibly even deprovement?" so right, this statement. indeed, i've not been doing what i set out to do at the start, and just like the thing about the teachers, i really don't want to come to regret it come next year when O level results are out. luck factor there may be, ultimately it'll still be my fault.

gp CT had ended on wednesday too. to be honest, i felt it went relatively well, at least much better than my previous pathetic attempts to come up with a half decent essay. guess luck was on my side with the topic on media being something that i actually had stuff to say. and i think i've begun to master the art of crafting proper theses, topic/linking statements and conclusions. comprehension paper wasnt that ideal though, quite a few weird questions came up and i was unsure whether i had interpreted them right. summary wasn't as nice as i wanted it to be either. i guess i'd be rather satisfied with an overall B grade..

first round of the npcc sec3 interviews also kicked off on wednesday. we didnt get to go through many candidates (only around 5 in fact), but it was enough to show a stark lack of preparation on the panel's part. i really need to get it right over the weekend/tomorrow; it was partly my fault that it had turned out this way as i was the one coordinating the entire thing. i also realised that i'm not some genius in analysing interviewees, could be because this is my first actual try at chairing interviews. nevertheless i'm certain it'll be a great learning experience for me at the end of it all. isnt it great? you get to learn so much even by being the interviewing and not the interviewed.

oh damn but i'm so caught up with npcc stuff. have to plan staff sergeant retest for the sec 4s (hopefully during this holidays, not very desirable to do it during term tmie), settle this interview business + hierachy finalisation, vet/help with planning of the sec3 cum sec1 camp, and get down to HTA to clock HQ service hours. so busy that i cant even make it for the LMSC, something which i'm actually quite saddened by.

which brings me to my june schedule. well, i'm definitely not as busy as certain other people who are out every day of the month, but whatever. there's a npcc sec4 chalet to look forward to, though i'm not sure if i'd be able to attend omg. damn. pw's gonna be super intensive during this period and i believe this month will really make or break the group. other than that, entre's YES symposium should be a fun and refreshing experience for me too, but that takes up 2 days which is kinda bad. oh and of course, npcc camp! 3 days man. will be a fun ride, as long as i dont have to witness horrible hiccups or screwups on the sec4s/sec3s' part. if not my sadistic or evil side will reveal itself...dr jekyll muahaha.

yea man. havent talked about holiday homework yet, but it'll not be pretty nor will it be a nice read so i shall not elaborate. but for now, it may be high time for me to hit the bed and get my brain rested. i feel so dead now...but i think there's now something superbly great to look forward to every morning of school term now. happy guessing =) argh reminds me of how so many people have suddenly come to know about it...is it because of me or am i making it a little too obvious to be able to hide it? hai, that's life for you. uncertainties to the max.


i'm not gonna stop, i'm sure it'll work out. somehow, as long as i believe. for you, yes it's you.