why is it the last proper week of school and lessons already?!?!

life's so short.

man, i enjoyed spending tonight on msn, reading up on fascinating psychological studies, even doing the occasional studying via online resources. it's really not a bad way to spend time on a weekend.

but alas, time does not permit such worldly pleasures at this point in time. 12 days more and well i really don't feel secure at all, honestly. there are too many things to do and too little time left to do them. i guess the accumulated procrastination over the year's really going to come down hard on me now.

i really do want to do well for prelims. i do want to get a scholarship at an organisation that takes to my liking, and that new moe teaching internship that came along this week sounds pretty appealing as well. but all these hopes, like it or not, hinge on one's As (or lack of). that much i became clearer after the UK uni admissions talk today. no matter what you say, grades are first consideration; if they suck no one bothers to glance at the rest of your resume already. cold but true state of reality.

i should stop blabbering theories upon theories; it would be silly if i didn't put them into practice myself huh.
but now it's 1.48am, and that unfortunately means bedtime.
off to bed, and hopefully a new and productive day!