wah damn angry. my computer's been infected with a gazillion trojan horses apparently. and i've got a "trojan horse detected" threat every time i turn on my comp. my msn has also been harbouring some weird virus that eats up my sentences turning them into malicious virus links.

VIRUS BEGONE.

onto other things now.

here i am, struggling to get my SGC done as it has been neglected for weeks already. boy i do take ages to get started on something. my inertia is like super big.
as i thought about what i had done that was worthy of inclusion in my SGC (which is not very much in most other people's view i would think), i was also thinking about the reason for having such things (like testimonials).
so why do we do something? so that others would see the greatness of what we have done, and know of our nobleness? now what point is there in doing something like that? oh of course i know phrases like "pragmatism" and "it's a dog eat dog world", i've experienced enough of that myself to not forget it for a long time. but does that really have to necessitate us conforming to society's norms, which i personally feel should not remain so.

i know i did the right thing by choosing a path that perhaps very, very few others would have taken or contemplated (i know many look upon it with disdain even now). because i love what i do and i went to do what i love, so i have no regrets. call it a calling if you must. maybe it sounds stupid of me; i mean, what place do ideals and dreams and passion have in today's competitive and realistic world?
well to me, it has all the place in the world. some things can't be properly expressed in words, so i think i'll stop here.

now i'm considering counselling as a career...hmm..