the past few days seemed to have passed by far too quickly.
it was just 2 days of raffles trail preparation plus actual event itself, but i feel pretty shag after everything. whoa.
time perspective has something to do with this, i know it. i just can't put my finger on what it is exactly.

raffles trail came/ended with rather mixed feelings about everything. sure, they didn't have as much initiative as i wanted nor did they perform up to standard sufficiently. granted, they just became sec4s and planning could really only start at short notice, so they're not all to blame. but anyway, i had fun (as usual, i always have fun at npcc depsite whatever negative things that may have come along), be it from the drills session, catching up with people or talking to the curious parents.
special thanks goes out to teng chuan, ye oon and lock leong for coming down to help despite being free of obligations to the unit whatsoever! thanks so much.

the more you think about something (bad), usually the worse it gets. can we place some sort of blockade between our hearts and those negative feelings sometimes so that we can concentrate on what is right instead? it doesn't help if those negative feelings keep barging in on you at every whim and fancy.

just now i was talking to a friend who told me he intends to drop out of jc. well, if he can't get his drive in jc but believes he will do so in poly instead, i told him why not? as long as you believe you can do it, i'd support you. makes me think of the phrase "one size does not fit all". seriously, who said that everyone has to take the jc route in order to make some kind of a decent mark in life? who said that everyone has to become a doctor lawyer or CEO or you just fail in society (and monetary prowess)? aren't there other more important factors to consider, one of the most important being your own happiness and satisfaction derived from the route chosen?

but it makes me think about npcc too. what if we're just trying too hard to make silver become gold (analogy to the cadets of course)? that can't possibly happen, not with what technology and methods we have now. does that mean that i should stop bothering to try since nothing will come out of it?

ah crap i really think too much. think too much and nothing gets done.
if i blog too much nothing will get done too.

so, i'm outta here for now.


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第几个100天


词：姚若龙

曲：林俊杰



我把爱铺成蓝天

让不安的妳一抬头就看得见

我把心烧成火焰

让怕黑的妳拥着温暖入眠


我晓得时间如雪有时候会覆盖一切

但是真爱一如倔强会重生的绿叶


第几个一百天还是很有感觉

用眼睛去素描妳内心的世界

第几个一百天也像刚热恋

两个人手一牵连命运都改变


曾有的敏感脆弱

在我的胸口你就躺下来别说了

将有的固执冲动

我也会拥抱妳安抚着体谅妳心疼着
Woah~
Yeah~


第几个一百天越来越有感觉

用眼睛去素描妳内心的世界

管过多少一百天也像刚热恋

两个人手一牵连命运都改变

当守护变信念连泪水都很甜