so very many of us are afraid to try.

i have a theory that excessive fear of the unknown and new has become a social disease. just look around, how many people squirm away from trying out something new with 101 reasons?
in the classroom, students sit in the back rows because they're afraid of the teachers calling upon them. in social gatherings, people stick to those that they are close to because they're afraid of strangers. if this behaviour is evident in such simple day to day events, what more of issues such as taking criticism and improving on oneself, and pursuing what you really want?
really, i think we've (me inclusive) all developed such a morbid fear of the word "try" that we are self-imprisoned. not of the body, but of the mind, of the soul. and those chains that self-bind are the worst kind of chains that can exist.

on a brighter note however, i'm so grateful for today's training and the TGIF party (especially my icebreakers), and it's like joshua said, you don't have to know all the facts to believe in something. be it believing in the power of technology (despite knowing nuts about the intricate mechanisms), the power of love, the meaning of what you do, and many other things that you might intuitively/strongly believe in no matter what others may have to say (negatively) about it, haven't we all placed some kind of ""blind" faith in something before? just something to think about.

i do wonder how much of our lives we spend in mindless guts-slogging.
hopefully, it's minimal. all the wealth riches and material comforts in the world cannot make up for an empty soul.

meh, i think i write here like i'm from another planet sometimes. or at least, i think some others (or many others?) will look at me that way.

for now, this is going to stop because i'm rather dead beat (both physically and mentally) after an entire day out. 8am to 10pm, siao.
yup, night..